i was enchanted to meet you

these are the words i have back cause i was leaving too soon; I was enchanted to meet you!

Oh wow, where to start? ...

On the 28th of July 2011 I arrived in New Zealand, Levin, with 4 other girls. Laura from Germany, Natelie from Denmark, Sara from Finland and Stefania from Italy. Of course we didn't know each other at all, but soon enough we figured; we are totally different from each other! All of us alone, confused and a bit (*hmm*) lost in Levin we end up as one friend group. 

Now you guys count to the most important people of my life!

I'm writing this bcos I know at the airport I won't be able to tell you all the things that I wanted to tell you. I think this entry is gonna make me cry...

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I tried to write a text for everyone of you guys but fuck that i just can't!
I don't manage to put all my feelings for you in words, no matter which words i use, they sound wrong, not meaningful enough, its not working. I am sorry.
fuck, nearly 8 months...and you mean the world to me. 
| crying |


fuck
I don't know what to say. 
I guess I've just lost another four parts of my heart.


...
| speechless |

ever imagined a heart wild, open and free?

I broke out, in the middle of the night, I took my shoes and I left, I ran down the drive. Then I was dancing in the moonlight, barefoot in the soft grass, in the middle of the night, and I was happy again. I broke out, I was free.


And I finally understood myself. I need to be wild and free. I can't live between, walls and fences. I can't be happy behind a closed door. Don't get me wrong, but I'm not in New Zealand because I like Kiwis so much, I'm here because I ran away. And I'm gonna do it again, and again and again. I have to be free.


I ran away from you, yes, but I love you, I love you so much and I'm always gonna come back to you, wherever the wind blows my little heart, and wherever the waves carry my soul to, I'm gonna come back.


I will probably break out again, and you should let me go, trust me.


I have a heart wild open and free.


Wow, I think I'm starting to get to know who I am and what I want.


xoxo
sabrina? ruby? 
haha

(and I miss you.)

7 months behind

126 days to go.

Summer has come and passed

the innocent can never last
wake me up when June ends

... (:

We all fall down...

...like toy soldiers

step by step

heart by heart

left right left

We All Fall Down Like Toy Soldiers

another cinderella story

Once upon a time

Far far far (really far, practically the end of the world) away there was a girl called Sabrina

She lived in a big household together with her host parents and her 4 brothers 

Every day she had to do the dishes, hang washing outside, bring washing inside, fold washing, sweep Floors, vacuumclean the mat, cook and bake, lay the table and so on...

When her host parents went out, she had to stay home and keep everything nice and tidy, 

While her brothers didnt really support that, 

In fact they did everything to make a big, big mess and made fun of her all the time

When she was sitting outside on the stairs tears running down her cold cheeks, only the dogs 

Oliver and Sunny were there

Then, a few days after the new year has begun, she was invited to a party

With the permission of her host parents she went 

And she met someone, someone she really liked or she was just curious (?...)

Time went fast and Sabrina and her two friends had to leave,

And as she was laying in her bed an hour later she couldn't stop thinking of him

And he didn't stop texting

Heartbeat after heartbeat, she was thinking, fighting herself...

And finally she won. 

Sabrina broke free, she runaway, sneaked out in the middle of the hot summer night

To go and see him

But as the odds weren't in the favour of the two lost ones, somebody found out

And the next day everybody knew

He left without a word

She had to listen to all the endless, painful speeches, 

And now still has to go through the torture of so called 'jokes'

They will never see each other again, still it was worth the one night of freedom

But now the grey atmosphere is back

and Sabrina is lost, alone

The End

STOP! Didn't Cinderella have a "and they lived happily ever after!" at the end?

Where about mine?

True Story. Real life Cinderella.

I always wanted to be a princess, never realized how hard it can be though...

Sabrina

... 6 months ae

Yep, yep, believe it or not, i'm over halfway through. (i cant believe it, haha)


Got the mail with the information bout my flight back home and, well, what should i say? It feels weird, like i just came here and soon as I have to go again, atm I don't really feel like going, or yes i do, no actually i don't know, I'm confused (*surprise surprise >.<*).


Well, i'll just leave it. I'm glad to go home, and I'm glad to still have five awesome! months to go! I'm glad I came and I'm glad I can go again. (; 

I love you, yep, you!

xoxo

(i know u love me too)

Sabrina.

queen princess sabrina ruby

PS: my birthday is like really really soon *____*