i was enchanted to meet you

these are the words i have back cause i was leaving too soon; I was enchanted to meet you!

Oh wow, where to start? ...

On the 28th of July 2011 I arrived in New Zealand, Levin, with 4 other girls. Laura from Germany, Natelie from Denmark, Sara from Finland and Stefania from Italy. Of course we didn't know each other at all, but soon enough we figured; we are totally different from each other! All of us alone, confused and a bit (*hmm*) lost in Levin we end up as one friend group. 

Now you guys count to the most important people of my life!

I'm writing this bcos I know at the airport I won't be able to tell you all the things that I wanted to tell you. I think this entry is gonna make me cry...

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I tried to write a text for everyone of you guys but fuck that i just can't!
I don't manage to put all my feelings for you in words, no matter which words i use, they sound wrong, not meaningful enough, its not working. I am sorry.
fuck, nearly 8 months...and you mean the world to me. 
| crying |


fuck
I don't know what to say. 
I guess I've just lost another four parts of my heart.


...
| speechless |

ever imagined a heart wild, open and free?

I broke out, in the middle of the night, I took my shoes and I left, I ran down the drive. Then I was dancing in the moonlight, barefoot in the soft grass, in the middle of the night, and I was happy again. I broke out, I was free.


And I finally understood myself. I need to be wild and free. I can't live between, walls and fences. I can't be happy behind a closed door. Don't get me wrong, but I'm not in New Zealand because I like Kiwis so much, I'm here because I ran away. And I'm gonna do it again, and again and again. I have to be free.


I ran away from you, yes, but I love you, I love you so much and I'm always gonna come back to you, wherever the wind blows my little heart, and wherever the waves carry my soul to, I'm gonna come back.


I will probably break out again, and you should let me go, trust me.


I have a heart wild open and free.


Wow, I think I'm starting to get to know who I am and what I want.


xoxo
sabrina? ruby? 
haha

(and I miss you.)